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Just to remind all my fellow JC friends, PROMOS is just 7/8 weeks away from now... i must really start mugging -_- ive got a feeling i cant make it for econs.. arghhhzzz =((

oh gosh, cant get it out from my head!!!! new interest! haha! hopefully i can succeed in whatever i intend to do...

A Brand New Start. hopefully? (:

okay im talking cock ppl... just ignore.. hahahaaaaaa...

had dinner with the saxys ytd night at parkway swensens. Joan and i treat them ice cream and fries, burn a hole in our pockets.. hahaa. and its really interesting to listen all sorts of gossips from yans and geraldine.. lol.. but know what? i dun care whatever they say, esp what yans told me.. lol, i just listen for fun and think its kinda interesting to noe how immature some ppl can be.. and in this world, everyone is a fucking hypocrite, and i really mean everyone single person... theres no such thing as tat person is dam innocent and doesnt gossip at all... realised that i seldom confide in anyone nowadays, lol cuz im only worried abt my studies and nth else..zzzzzz

if the global temperature rises by 6degrees celcieus more, Singapore will be fully submerged in the water (: die then die lor.. scared of wad sia -_-

i was done with my GP summary at abt three plus which is just now.. and guess wad? my sis laptop suddenly restarted and i cant login because i dont have the password.. which means.... i have to fucking retype the whole document based on my memory using my brother's laptop now =(((((... and wtf, how can i rmb what i actually wanted to say when its lik in the middle of the night... -_- omggggggg... i cant imagine wad shit im gg to get from my tutors in a few hours time to sch.. michelle is still online until now.. only the two of us doing some shit stuff until so late.. and shes listening to songs now so that she can fall asleep.. i cant slp at all, bcuz of the mocha i had -_- arghhhzzz stupid stupid.. i will confirm slp during lectures tml... how to survive jc life sia... ZZZZZZZZZZZ... theres still tonnes and tonnes of work to be done.. ommggggggggggg...................ggggg............gggg....................................................... gdnite ppl (:

fucking hell.. theres tonnes and tonnes and tonnes of work to be done..

Chem alkene tutorial, physics gravitation and simple harmonic motions tutorials, maths tutorial on the malcharin expression, econs TWO case studies AND on TOP oF THAT, TWO BLOODY ESSAYS because im in the econs supplementary lesson.. fuck it... Chinese ke hou lian xi, GP AQ and summary... wah fuck fuck fuck.. im so not gg to slp tonight... im surviving on starbucks mocha which ive bought just now.. god dam it...seven more hours to sch.. how to finish all these =((((

nice pieces.. esp for machu picchu.. really wish to that with the band.. haha, we have tried playing danza sinfonica, a good piece to train... might be playing for fiesta... (:

National Day is coming, and monday is a school holiday for all! (:

went to hougang area in the afternoon.. was passing by this durian stall and omgggggggggg, i simply cant resist the temptation to just grab one! haha D:

okay, ive planned to stay overnight somewhere during national day, so that i can watch the fireworks with all my darlings and maybe have fish n co AGAIN? D:

eat Fish n Co until dam sick sia -_- cuz i just had it two days ago? oh ya, not to forget to mention that ive won 16bucks for mahjong... ooooo, btw, we can see fireworks from nikki hse cuz its quite near marina bay la, so maybe have mahjong again while watching fireworks. YAY!!!

and fuck. theres school tml. fuck fuck fuck. so many things to study and do and yet theres so little time. and im wasting time here blogging for nth -_- fuck, and its so stupid that i actually feel lik applying for a course in medical faculty. kns... tats just bullshit.. i want to watch a movie again.. Money Not Enough 2! :D any cheena poks who is interested in this movie? (=

Watched the dark knights with my friends... super duper uber nice! it was so worthwhile spending 8.50 jus for this movie.. its awesome! :D

then went to nikki hse to play mj and won 16bucks :))

and yucks.. theres sch on monday.. oh crap -__-



my future hse? hahahaah




dont ask me why i didnt go down tk today and watch the band... personal reasons... so what if i go down? nothing much will happen except that i will have to answer some stupid questions and put on a fake smile? lol... and anyway i dont intend to go at all although i was ALMOST persuaded to go when i started receiving calls from my friends and seniors, and juniors asking me why im not going -_- and tat stupid xinyi so thick skin cuz she actually wanted me to record the whole performance for her -_- hhahhaaaa... all i can say is.. all the best to TKBAND! oh well, too bad that things have turned out like this (:

Interesting physics video! A MUST WATCH (:

okay, i super duper love this laptop to the max... although it doesnt have any webcam and recording functions, but still its windows vista.. hahaaaaaaaa, just wish that the comp breaks down forever... and im lik using this laptop as if it belongs to me!!

dam it, e learning rocks to the max can.. lol so funny la.. i was at nard's hse doing econs elearning.. i put on my earpiece and listen to beetsma lecturing us... oh gosh, less than two minutes, i fell asleep with the laptop on my legs... her voice is so soothing to the ears, lik a lullaby! hohoooo.....

my whole gang knows how to play mahjong... and its just so nice that we have eight people.. we plan to have mj session on national day at nikki hse, open two tables? LOL!!!! oh, planning to have a year end overseas holiday with them.. bintan -_- HAHAHAHAAAAAA...

all of us are mahjong addicts to the max, just had online mahjong with them and tml we are playing the real one at nikki hse after shopping and watching movie at marina!! watching DARK KNIGHTS!!!!!! :DDDDDDDD

hoooooooooo.... and i bet nicholas is chionging his elearning now... his dp is super ugly! and hes doing history now.. wtf, i didnt know he took history as one of the subject... wth.. sometimes i think that maybe taking history is better than taking econs and physics.. god dam itttttttttttttttttt......................................

okay im looking forward to tml.. but NOOOOTTT looking forward to monday! :D yay, back to mugging physics now =( see ya all my darlings TML! :D

lol.. interesting videos when i was doing my elearning just now :)





lol... SOMEbody send me the links of miss swan new videos.. as funny as ever man! :D

its interesting to hear stories like a 13 year old boy liking a 16 year old senior, doing things for her on her birthday or even during days of no special occasion. Haha, looks lik jie di lian is the new trend nowadays? what is happening to today's society? Im not trying to say that the age difference should be used as a gauge for what type of people to get together, but it seems like this criteria which was regarded with certain amount of importance in the past is no longer valid now.

If you are given a choice, having to choose a man to marry, one of which is a 65 year old billionaire who might die anytime while the other one is someone who is close to your age(older than you) and has a promising future, who will you choose? Would you be in a dilemma?

The answer might be quite apparent to some but still, it can be subjective. Do not underestimate the power of love, neither should we have that kind of mindset towards the power of money. The affluent population in Singapore has been growing rapidly (quite a generalised statement because i dont have figures to substantiate), and this seems to be a rampant situation with people from other countries having higher purchasing power. Only during recession, it will then alter everything and that is when reality sets in. Money might be everything, but there are things that cant be bought since they are priceless, either that or they cannot be measured in value.

Power of love? haha, should i say that its something that can be classified under the category of "necessities of life"? Will i die without having love? I myself cant really decide on which stand to take. People who go around flirting with girls/guys, leading others on or even confessing to them, are they so called the despos? Do they impoverish their lives by the limits which they place on their love? There are people who go like "hey, why cant you just be more decisive, stop leading him/her on with all your stupid tactics can when you are not even interested in that person!" i mean like WOW!, well said by the person. But wait, did the person ever reflect upon him/herself that he/she is able to that too? Having not to reply to someone who is going after you at all? How about another scenario, when a person is trying so hard to forget someone when he/she likes that someone so much? Why must the person torture him/herself, trying all means to forgo everything when you know that deep down inside your heart, the feelings are still so strong. This person definitely has no rights to scold someone for leading another person on, because if you yourself cant even handle your personal feelings well, what bloody rights do you have to reprimand him/her? If he/she loves leading people on, let it be unless it concerns you THAT much. But i have to say that that person ought to be taught a lesson by someone, and that someone has to be one of the suitors having the courage to confront her right in her face. And because the so called power of love, there are people who are willing to try all means to change this type of person who is a failure when handling relationships. I have realised that outsiders wont be able to help much, because i had experienced this before, having to tell my friend not to do this and that as it will tarnish his/her reputation, but all words were treated as if nothing has went into his/her ears. This person ought to learn a lesson which will wake him/her up.

Can i really live without love? Definitely not if the world is going to end by 21st December 2012. Lol, that was really random. Nobody can foresees your future. I am nourished by love especially from friends and i feel glad for that. Friends are hard to come by, but are they really the ones who can spiritually support me till i part with this world? I have got no idea, but i dont believe in having friendships which will last for eternity. Nothing lasts, not even mankind's life span, but at the same time, nothing is lost. Things that we have once possessed before left us with memories, be it good or bad. Think in a way that at least they were once part of your life, and your life is merely a short 100years. So, do cherish what you have now because you wouldnt know when it might secretly leave you without even you noticing it. And when you know that it is no longer with you anymore, there will be sorrows, agony and most importantly, having regrets. Sorrows and agony are nothing. They are just feelings that can be gone with the wind and the time factor sets in. But having regrets is something worse as time cannot be turned back.

Its just a random post though it sounds abit like a GP essay. E-learning is kinda okay, cuz i am able to absorb more when im studying alone.. Whole week no sch, how shiok can that be? (:

hello hello (: im back here blogging... ive finished doing my eom! :DDDDDD but exceeded the word limit..

im so excited for tml! hehehe...

theres free lunch and dinner provided siolllllll... all thx to nikki bitch. okay, i will be able to see his cool younger brother, Levon! hahaha :p mahjong mahjong.. <33

i think ryan dam weird, keep kajiaoing me these few days on msn... and the reason was that hes bored -_- but i find talking to him can be quite interesting.. in some ways, both of us look very kp to others.. but when ppl come and interact with us, that is the time when we will let our guard down, somehow become more friendly.. im not sure if hes that kind of person.. but he says that hes sth similar to me, we dont interact much in the beginning.. but it takes time to know us... lol... and hes trying to act humble by saying that he quite okay in his tpt playing.. and btw, i didnt know hes twenty years old.. dunno he talk cock or wad but ya... oh and he misses band! lol? so sad.. i bet alot of other J2s also miss the band alot...

i find that time is passing so slow on days which i dont have school.. i wonder why...... azlan messaged me saying that hes free on either mon or wed to have a dinner with us.. wonderful wonderful.. im so looking forward to that dinner =)

HI! *in bx's voice* lol.. just woke up :D

Happy SWEET 17th BIRTHDAY MICHELLE CYNTHIA AW WEI LING~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

looks lik all of us have turned 17 except nikki the slut. and yea, we definitely cant wait for our rocking 18th birthday to come.

Took back my mid year progress from miss tng ytd. sigh, results really suck to the max. ive only got 8percentile for physics =((((( this is real bad... gg to mugg dam dam dam hard for physics now.. when u feel lik mugging, theres PW to do.. when u don feel lik mugging, there are tonnes and tonnes of tutorial or case studies waiting for you to touch on them. Life in JC really sucks -_- but luckily, time passes fast. it can be seen as an advantage or otherwise. Miss tng somehow scolded us on how average our results was for my class. theres a group of ppl who are doing well and they have been consistent in doing their tutorials while theres another group who has been quite slack with their work. and ya, im definitely guilty for them.. its because some of us that probably pulled down the class ranking in the cohort when we can be one of the top... zzzzzzzzzzz, i really got no idea where im heading towards man... im still trying dam hard to settle down..and i should really believe in myself that i AM progressing yo!

wanted to meet friends at parkway after my pw meeting, but was too exhausted from the Alevel chinese listening compre which was held earlier on.. so i made my way home.. took bus 38 with nicholas and i think hes dam cute(as a friend -_-).... he wanted me to go and watch the MEP concert at esplanade today.. haha, but ive got no money and that kind dude is willing subsidise me FIVE DOLLARs only... lol cheapo.. haha =X realised that ive been spending money on food this whole week.. gg pizza hut ah, breeks cafe ah~~ oh ya! there was batch dinner ytd night.. haha, its great to see those guys, reminiscing the past events which were mostly on our band life in TK. and looks lik the sgc is finally out!

hohoho, im glad about certain stuff. didnt expect that i was able to succeed in it so fast as compared to last time.. ive tried all means to check whether i do have feelings for it, but it looks lik everything is gone... every single thing..(pls don think so far) i shall keep this a secret.. =X

i just want to faster spend the rest of 14 months in tj, get it over and done with.... i havent decided on which faculty is the ideal one for me. but oh god, i haven even overcome the first hurdle and im thinking about the second one -_-

just now listening compre was dam funny, it totally reminds me of Olevel listening compre... they wil play symphonic band music for half an hour which really makes people go to sleep.. during last year listening, they played Canon in D.. lol quite nice la.. this time round i dunno wth the music is about... i almost fell asleep cuz it was cold(aircon lor) and the music was quite soothing to the ears la... =/ okay, i gtg do work. will update more often when ive got the time... so yea, stay tuned! :D

just came back home from that yap hwee san's hse... wah lao.. we are in the same sch and yet we talk lesser to each other, ironic isnt it? lol... it has been sooo freaking long ever since i last talked to her which was dunno when la... was doing surfing the net with junliang at the HUB until arnd five.. lol.. hes flying off to SHANGHAI next tues to sun.. aww so sad =/ hahaaa... thereafter meet hs and went to her hse..did some hw and probably gossip? -_- lol, dun hav so much time for that la... there was GP essay test just now.. i wrote on whether home is considered important in people's lives today... ahahazz.. hopefully can get better marks la...

on sunday, the usual gang had dinner with tp and sophia at changi airport breeks cafe... okay it was so dam funny la.. people sitting next to us ordered a super duper big bowl of ice cream for some birthday purposes la.. so we were sang along la... den that sofy kept looking at them and say, eh today my friend's birthday also... i think the manager heard... so he gave her free ice cream when we were about to bill.. HAHAHHAAA... dang dang funny... it wasnt her birthday at all can? -_-

thereafter, we roamed arnd airport terminal 2 and 3.. wow.. and guess who i saw? lol.. i saw sarah(ex Tkband sax SL and Tjband alumni)!!! hahazz.. shes working at some gift shop in T3! and guess what she told me next? Atikah works there too -_- wah biangssss... lol... Singapore is just so dam small =/

NEXT WEEK IS TJ's E-LEARNING WEEK!! hahahazz... i wish that the whole system just break down and crash la... then we can just act innocent and do nth abt it.. whole week dun need to go sch, how shiok can that be!?!?!?! might be having mj session again this coming sun.. i swear i must win back all my money from that stupid thongkiat!!! and I FORBID him to wear RED shirt again if he wants to play with us.. arghhhzzzz....
bx is dam HAHAHAHA.... she went for the G-max thing with her gang... omg... she looks fking unglam.. and dam dam HUMJI to the max la. okay, im not trying to say im dam brave and i wont be scared if i were there.. but still... she just look dam humji and her facial expression was lik having orgasm =X hHAHAHAHAH! i swear if i win thirty bucks back from thongkiat, i will go and try G MAX! i make sure bx sits on top of me... and she can just get fly off to the universe forever... bye slut! lolololololololol...


random photo, view from HS room


dunno who took this photo


T3



Crowne Plaza


nikki the bitch


lol.. photos all jumble up.. paisei.. second shot from hs room


nice right? mich ordered this


nikki ordered this.. it looks weird =/




the lovely couple. sofy and tp


ages ago.. bx the fucktard acting pro in mj


PONG! stupid thongkiat wear red shirt! zZZZZZZZ


FISH AND CHIPS! MINE! :D



the free ice cream we got.. HAHAHAH :D



omfg, im webcaming with e slut now.. lol.. wah lao eh.. bx is really a piece of funny shit can? wad baby wo ai ni.. wah kao... feel lik puking... and shes fking vulgar TO THE MAX!! -_- she has a fan switched on beside on.. she claims that shes some chiobu taking photos and got the wind effect.. omgggGGGGGGG... wads wrong with ppl nowadays.. mich everyday act cute in sch until... ommMGMGGGGGGGGGGGG... acting cute is the latest trend?? hAHAHHAHA!!! stupid yughan, say wanna talk and call me.. in the end? go and sleep and dream abt jamie.. lol loser kia... okay i wanna go to my dreamland too! bye ppl :D

lastly, HUANG BAOXIAN SUCKSSS!! MAXXX!!!!!! knnccbljk <--- dedicated to my dearest verity huang baoxian! :D

For music lovers, do listen to it. Played by us - Temasek Junior College Symphonic Band during Prelude 28. Got it from Tommy's blog whos our ex-student conductor. Live for music man! :)

Nites everyone.. theres sch in a few hours time.. sad =( will post some pics tml... funny incidents in the airport!! hahazzz...

im gg to the airport later on to mugg -__- and meet up with sophia and tp to have dinner! :D

ive finished watching zhuan jiao yu dao ai.. its really super duper uber nice can!!!!!! Da S is quite chio in the show as compared to liu xing hua yuan which was years ago... haha! having band pracs every wed and fri... im enjoying the music.. enjoying linsheng's conducting.. okay tat was random.. suddenly i felt so much for band.. hopefully we can have three pracs every week soon.. do our best for the upcoming fiesta08 and work hard towards prelude 29 and most importantly, SYF2009! (:

on fri night, i slept at 9 which was abt the time i reached home, went for a bath, and onto my bed and SLEEP. wah, i wake up the next morning at abt 11.. lol, was late for pw meeting at the national library.. wah biang... wad kind of coincidence was that man? my sis and her friends came at abt 2plus to do their project also.. they were sitting right infront of us.. NLB so big, and so zhun that she has to go level 11 -_- zzzzzz.....

after pw, walked arnd at bugis with my friend... met another one at arnd four plus.. went bugis street and bought my baGG!! hehezz.. not cheap sia.. i bargain for the price from 55.90 to 50.. 5.90 can be quite alot okay!!! enuff to buy a mac EVM!!! hohoho.. so dam happy now..

im so looking forward to Elearning week.. then can stay at home and slack during that period of time. but heard from miss tng that there will be alot of hw =/ sighhhhh.. but so wad? time really flies man.. its already MID JULY!! and promos is ten weeks away from now i think... =/ Year One for JC life is going to end soon..im so not looking forward to year two.. and im dam lazy, cuz i dun study much -_- its no use saying that you want to turn over a new leaf.. even though u turn it, its still the same leaf... lol, dunno heard from who la but anyway, i think its dam true... a leopard never changes its spots.. i hate this phrase.. cuz i dont think its true at all...

oh i just rmbed sth.. i forgot to return hs call for twice.. omg im dead -_- LOLOLOL




on thurs, stayed back in sch till eight with aw.. bought slurpee!! the miniature slurpee is an eraser.. soo cute





corner with love.. this scene is dam sad.... lol



theme song for the show..

good morning everyone! in just a few hours time, i will be back in sch... didnt sleep alot these few nights, resulted to sleeping during almost all lectures.. hopefully i wont get caught by the chemistry lecturer again.. =X hmm, even bojun mentioned that i looked dam shagged in the morning when taking 69.. i shall take one day off, probably weekends, to just sleep the whole day....

life in school is da best... lol, looks lik i pass all subs except econs.. not sure abt GP though, hopefully get a subpass.. =/

went down NUH on wed afternoon for a dental visit. the dentist who attended on me is from the NUS Dentistry Faculty.. haven graduated yet but got quite a lot of experience in orthodontics.. so yeap.. first time i saw him, i was lik totally wow? hahaz, hes really a nice person, dam talkative.. hes 23 this year and previously studied in RJC.. COOL RITE?? hahaazz.. then he started rambling about how naughty he was during his sec sch and JC life... quite interesting to talk to him.. and guess what? he says that i got anything to confide in him, can just give him a call or sms anytime.. LOL! lik wth man?

wah lao.. have been sleeping during lectures non stop man... really dam freaking tired!!!! cuz i always sleep at two or one plus at night.. have been watching zhuan jiao yu dao ai(corner with love) taiwan drama.. its luo zhi xiang and Da S this time round being the lead actor and actress... wow.. theres quite alot of chemistry between them in this show.. this show is super duper uber nice can!!! ahhhhhhhh... some scenes are super sweet and yet some are freaking irritating.. esp during the times when luo zhi xiang can be quite indecisive in confessing to Da S that he admires her.. lol.. but the whole process is dam nice la... theres another guy who is quite hot inside the show... somemore hes rich!! aiya, this only happens in shows la... =((

talking to bx on msn is dang dang funny... lollll.... that stupid pea seriously dam sluttish can.. next time i swear im gg to throw a mj tile on her face across the living room or sth.. :DDD

shiet, im getting tired now.. okay time to go and sleep!!! ((: nites ppl.. will update my blog more often when i have time la... anyway, im really alright people... i dun care abt anything.. anymore... :)

i told myself to be strong no matter what happens. im old enough to handle all these, even if im all alone by myself.

the purpose of posting the previous entry is not to gain any sympathy from anyone, neither am i proud to tell everyone abt my own family probs. its just that it comes to a point that there isnt anything to be ashamed of. i didnt tell any single soul about it in the past, purely because i think that im dam ashamed of this kind of family. everyone jus trying to put on a brave front. and honestly speaking, my mum doesnt want anyone to know about it just because shes afraid that we will lose face. probably tats e reason why i didnt bother to confide in bernard anything abt this since his mum and my mum are colleagues... thats the main reason...

this morning was so bad.. i looked into the mirror while brushing my teeth.. my eyes were red and swollen.. probably due to lack of sleep and too much of crying... slept at arnd 4 plus in the morning.. im shocked by wads happening today.. everything suddenly became so quiet.. should i say that i enjoy this tranquilness or i rather it to be as noisy as ever? know what? i dont know the answer cuz basically i dont give a damn about anything now.. my only wish now is that i can finish my education asap and get employed by a big company, earn big bucks, and live outside by myself in an executive apartment. thats the kind of life i yearn for..... but who knows again? everyone might just die EVEN BEFORE the arrival of 21dec2012...

dun worry my friends.. im so dam alright now.. no use crying over some bastard.. no use worrying abt all these when ive got so many other stuff worth my concern.. and honestly, im kinda amused by someone telling me go find a councillor to talk abt it. funny isnt it? well, at least i think so... i rather talk to friends.. friends who i can confide in... but this time round, i chose the alternate route, that is to blog about it and tell the whole world how sucky my family can be... frankly speaking, i dont admire other families who are happy living with each other.. cuz i know that given my kind of character, i just wanna survive alone, hmmm, probably with someone i truely love... oh well, but finding that MR Right is going to take some time as i can be quite particular about someone's character.. lol, im not trying to say that ive got a gd character, but i mean lik its normal for girls to look at that first before considering how the person looks lik... =)

sorry for all my rantings which can be quite unpleasant... i know this is my blog and ive got rights to blog abt anything.. but somehow, i dun wish to pollute the minds of my readers.. a big thx to all my friends out there. im really fine now... i must be strong.. its hard.. but i will continue this journey no matter how hard it is...

btw, happy sweet 17th birthday to miss YAP HWEE SAN!! :DDD

im all alone in the room.. i dun care wads happening outside at all... fucked bastard... not calling tat fucking bastard dad for six god dam years... im beyond hurt today.. very very very... i swear i wont even shed a single tear when hes dead.. i wont at all...

its a mental torture... i cried non stop since afternoon til now... not crying over tat bastard.. but just thinking why am i borned into this kind of family... and everytime mum will just put on a facade to others... willing to tolerate that bastard's nonsense for twenty sth years... i dun blame my mum at all.... and yes.. i pray to god every single day that they can just get a divorce.. and my wish is finally fufilled.. after so many fucking years of abuse... mentally especially.. all of us had enough.. more than enough... tat bastard drived me to the extreme end and i did unexpected things..

imagine everyone is not at home, except me and some fucked up bastard.. and hes getting so cranky over stuff that he overheard.. few days back, my siblings and i had a discussion in my room while the fucker was sleeping in the room right beside ours... and i bet he heard some stuff... we were discussing abt the future.. where to move,, whether to sell the hse or not.. wads gg to happen to me when i have not even finished my studies yet.. job wise for my siblings.. how? my mum too.. we had great plans to get rid of him.. sis even suggested that after having a divorce, have some document prepared as an evidence to prove that we arent related to him any any more and he got no rights to find us for money in the future.. wow.. i was so elated to hear that.. fucking happy... and what fucked up stuff happened just now? i locked myself in the room.. when he tried opening the door claiming to take some stuff, i was lik what u want to take? and fucked it, the moment when he knew it was locked, he bang and slam the door for umpteen times... its so fucking loud that practically every single person living in this whole block can hear everything... vulgarities started echoing in the hse...saying that this isnt your hse at all and not yr fucking room... u better open the door now if not i kill u.. its not just scolding "cheebye, lanjiao or wadever hokkien vulgarities" its telling u to go fuck other ppl.. go fuck your friends and be a prostitute at geylang..insulting all my friends.. and just because that bastard saw me coming home with bernard, he claims that tats the fucking boyfriend whom i fuck every single day.. insulting me that im watching some porno stuff in the room just bcuz he heard some television sound... i can tahan him scolding wadever shit of me.. what i cant stand is that he actually pushed everything to my mum.. claiming that she go fuck someone else and give birth to me.. cheebye.. and say that if i ever dare step out of the room, hes gg to rape and kill me... words like "my thing is long enough to fuck you deep in" crude.. crude... abuse.. its seriously mentally abusing me lik mad.. i was scared stiff.. because i didnt have phone with me.. all i could do is just cry to myself...

when everyone was back.. he acted lik nth has happened.. i came out and started yelling at him, and of cuz.. saying that im proud to be a prostitute to fuck him back... didnt expect my bro's gf was outside too.. nevertheless, tat maddog started yelling lik nobody's business again.. everyone came to noe what happened after me saying in the midst of the war... violent... to the max.. bro's gf went out first.. i dun fucking care.. everyone was mad.. my mum was.. my sister too... no i dont wish to say wad exactly happened...

will it help just by calling 999? no it doesnt at all.. twice already and it didnt help at all for the past 10 years.. this is the first time i telling all these to everyone except one person who knows abit of it only... it comes to a point that theres nth to be ashamed of at all... even my mum thinks so now.. want to quarrel then lets do it man.. no need to be scared of others being able to hear or see it.. cuz its usual already.. everyone knows that problems and quarrels forever will arise from this unit.. mum's telling me to call the police if such thing arises again... haha, come to think of it. i was stupid enough to sympathise him, claiming that even after we don live tgt, maybe we should still send him some money each month even though we totally cut off connections from him.. and sister straight away objected to it and said "totally cut off connection.. dun even need to care whether hes dead or alive.. none of our business...totally..." everybody was speechless..

i swear i hate this kind of home... i wanted to kill him just now.. was really in a irrationale state of mind...but i kept quiet.. and just tolerated all these... all i could do is just cry to myself... and nw my sis is yacking away.. "now u see why u must come over to my hse?" i guess its really time to move out.. i cant stand all these any anymore.............

sianz.. dunno wth im thinking about these few days.. really sucks..to e max... i cant think for nuts..

im super duper tired.. just reached home from 15hrs of mahjong... im glad theres youth day tml.. oh well, the world's gg to end by 21st Dec 2012.. so i dun really care much now.. just want everything to go along my way.. selfish it may seemed to be, but ive got no choice... i wana die sooner... relieve from all the stress... no worries.. no thoughts at all.. no stress... no unhappiness...but just a life i simply enjoy...

im sick n tired of everything.. =((( i really need a shoulder to lean on... its now the time to do so... i want to get married, and give birth before 2012.. quite stupid rite? i dont want any money.. but just pure happiness.. lol... wishful thinking i guess... realised that my IQ and EQ are getting worse..=/ life is getting tougher each and every day.. im amazed by how ppl taking it so lightly when they get straight Us for jct.. but i guess they are the smart ones, who will just be a mugger when the right time comes...

went back tk ytd.. sigh.. im wondering wth is gg on.. its really getting worse... just felt lik shutting my ears and eyes.. pretend not to see anything just like before... im being kind to even make a trip down, but im sorry to say that im not gg to clear up this pile of s*** tgt with them.. but still, im not that heartless.. if I HAVE time, i will come down to help as much as possible... and i wont go kl... cuz of many personal reasons...
btw, the new com was announced already...hopefully they wil bring the band to greater heights.. well, can see the sec fours are quite sad, but its just part and parcel of life that we need to leave somewhere or its time to lessen our burden... the band really need to work freaking freaking freaking hard... sec4s themselves must push the sec three leaders much much more... oh well... its really not easy to be a SL, esp when ur in an outdoor band of a high disciplinary level...

went nikki's hse after that to play mj.. everyone was there... his hse is becoming a gambling den, with two mj tables in the living room.. everyone scolds vulgarities lik nobody's business -_- lol, lucky his parents are overseas.. oh well =/ lost quite a lot la.. 30sth dollars.. there are times when u will win lik crazy or lose until vomit blood in gambling.. lol... btw, pon threw a mj tile straight into bx's fat face from another mj table to ours.. just simply cuz she was really fking noisy, being so sluttish and bitchy, with that acbc voice keep echoing in our ears.. unbearable siol.. lol.. but that fktard is cute la.. played alll the way till 3plus then went 7-11 to get some drinks.. basket.. the parkway outlet guy wanted to check our IC.. wad sia... first time failed to buy can? bitch sia...

im in a dilemma.. fk.. cuz i hate this kind of situation.. i hate taking bus alone cuz it somehows make it freaking emo for me and i will start to.... sigh... the only time i enjoy taking it alone is when im sleeping.... o_O shall blog more later or tml.. right now.. i want to... aiya, just wanna be a rock and stone la -_- the weather is dam hot.. global warming.....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......................

slept at 1am last night just to complete chinese and maths hw.. but didnt finish at all.. chinese hw is freaking OMMMGGG??? seven chapters of zuoye -_- fk.. need one whole day to do.. nvm.. i got the model answer sheet for the whole chinese workbook from grace and photocopied.. so yea.. im gg to just copy all my ans later.. dam it -_-

so freaking tired today.. i can practically fall asleep everywhere... stayed in sch till arnd 8 i think to do pw.. haha.. at arnd 6plus, pb mich and i went to the track and started running... pb ran five rounds while mich and i stopped after one round.. lie down on the field and look at the sky.. how wonderful can that be? weather was superb and not many ppl were arnd too.. really love tj to the max la.. other than studying part -_-

oh.. im gg to get a selmer S80 C** tenor sax mouthpiece!! HURRAY!! :DD oh gosh, i cant imagine that all this while ive been using a lousy yamaha mouthpiece with a selmer instrument.. really sound crappy man... hahaaa... C**mcp has a slightly bigger opening than C*, an improved version of C*.. so ya, hopefully i can master it asap =)

there is pilot test tml!!! hopefully everything goes well =) haha.. sch is ending at 12.30 tml!! yayyyyssssssss..... cant wait for sat to play mj.. my fingers are really getting itchy man, got an urge to touch the mj tiles.. awwww, kinda weird.. i dun really like staying at home other than during sleeping time =/ i feel lik gg to sch now... LOL tats random... :)

Dr Mario just contacted me to go down to national university hospital(dental dept) for some checkup stuff before receiving the full treatment.. crap.. i think im gg to put braces dam soon, probably in two weeks time.. =/ okay mario sounds funny.. but his name is really Dr Mario -_- lolllllllllllllllll :DDDDD wah lao, put braces dam ugly can? but no choice =/

Gd day ppl! just gg to type a short entry and i need to go off to do all my hw.. hmm lets see, ive got chinese hol hw which was left undone and its alot alot alot.. 6chapters of zuoye -_- erm, and theres math trigonometry tutorial to complete, physics tutorial on gravitation to complete too...

i kinda pass math =/ so ya.. other subs can go die.. maybe chem get subpass.. i pass chinese.. haven get back gp and econs yet.. heard from my friends that the whole cohort did terribly bad for econs.. HAHAHA!! oh gosh, so regretted taking econs as my H2sub.. should haven taken geog or sth.. but sigh, econs is a subject that is very important, relevant and useful to me in the future when im working.. =/ boohoo!! was just talking to mr oily online and hes quite disappointed with his results, saying that he will get 4Us(ungraded)... oh well, he thinks that its time to wake up from everything and gotta work dam dam hard for this semester.. i dun want to retain.. sigh... now i must constantly remind myself to work hard and play much lesser... =((

there was band just now.. lol.. played the piece beautiful oregon which i think it was quite interesting with the confusing time signature that keeps changing lik mad.. hahaaaaa... and oh ya!! do take a look at tjcsb blog.. its dang cool now.. nicholas and aida being the new creative directors have changed the blog with a whole new look!!! VISIT http://www.tjcsb.blogspot.com now!!

okay theres acjc band and snyo concerts coming up.. theres also TJ ALUMNI BAND CONCERT COMING UP on 2nd AUGUST 2008! it will be held at VCH, 7.30pm!!! tickets are sold at $12 for stall seats.. no more circle seats left.. so ya.. tixs are selling fast so grab it fast!! =)) lol.. the commitee members and SLs need to be VCH that day to do some stuff.. oh well, hope tat its gg to be fun :DD

okay, i shall end my post here and go mugg liao.. see ya guys! (:

im a happy little girl! :] hohoho.............. lets study tgt one fine day... study study study!!!!!!

woooooo!!!! :)) aiya.. fail then fail.. i dun give a damn already -_-

hohoho! anyway, zhikai came back tjc today to get his cert.. so yup met up with him and had a dam gd talk.. it has been so long since we last talked face to face.. hmmm... feeling weird though =/ lol.. but all these while he has been very concerning towards me, quite glad la... and he forgot all his Alevel work, cant even do any single qn of my physics paper.. HAHHA!!!! :DDDD

had Alevel chinese oral today.. OMMMMGGGGG.. the reading passage was super duper challenging can? the question asked was about why singaporeans go overseas to visit the tourist attractions rather than visiting the local ones.. wtf? -_- oh well, but i crap through my way with my china accent mandarin! HAHAHAHA bullshit siol.. hopefully can score well ba =]

have been talking to nicholas these few days and hes super duper funny la.. he calls me susu in sch now =( nvm.. i call him cutiepie and he approves it.. opps sry mich =X hahahazz... aiya, ppl self-proclaimed that hes as hot as ice but as cold as fire.. -_- wad lameshit is that?? and yea! THERES BAND PRAC TML!! ((:

hmm.. u see rite? JUST when i wanna turn over a new leaf for physics and decided to attempt on my "first" tutorial.. i cant even do a single qn.. omg.. gravitation chapter is super duper hard can? i can imagine hw diff it is for the chapter on electricity!! GG LIAO LOR!!!

MJ SESSION AGAIN THIS SAT!!! =))) awww.. cant stay overnight cuz i got wedding dinner. sighhhh... play with nccland guys again and my dearies at nikki hse.. WOOHOO!!!!!! :DD

HAPPY SWEET 16 ZING!! hahazzz.. wah time really flies man.. i look back those pics taken with her from the past.. realised that her face changed alot, became more mature.. lololol... and ya i became chioer too.. HAHHAHAHA.. hope u lik the present friend! xD

Just to remind all my fellow JC friends, PROMOS is just 7/8 weeks away from now... i must really start mugging -_- ive got a feeling i cant make it for econs.. arghhhzzz =((

oh gosh, cant get it out from my head!!!! new interest! haha! hopefully i can succeed in whatever i intend to do...

A Brand New Start. hopefully? (:

okay im talking cock ppl... just ignore.. hahahaaaaaa...

had dinner with the saxys ytd night at parkway swensens. Joan and i treat them ice cream and fries, burn a hole in our pockets.. hahaa. and its really interesting to listen all sorts of gossips from yans and geraldine.. lol.. but know what? i dun care whatever they say, esp what yans told me.. lol, i just listen for fun and think its kinda interesting to noe how immature some ppl can be.. and in this world, everyone is a fucking hypocrite, and i really mean everyone single person... theres no such thing as tat person is dam innocent and doesnt gossip at all... realised that i seldom confide in anyone nowadays, lol cuz im only worried abt my studies and nth else..zzzzzz

if the global temperature rises by 6degrees celcieus more, Singapore will be fully submerged in the water (: die then die lor.. scared of wad sia -_-

i was done with my GP summary at abt three plus which is just now.. and guess wad? my sis laptop suddenly restarted and i cant login because i dont have the password.. which means.... i have to fucking retype the whole document based on my memory using my brother's laptop now =(((((... and wtf, how can i rmb what i actually wanted to say when its lik in the middle of the night... -_- omggggggg... i cant imagine wad shit im gg to get from my tutors in a few hours time to sch.. michelle is still online until now.. only the two of us doing some shit stuff until so late.. and shes listening to songs now so that she can fall asleep.. i cant slp at all, bcuz of the mocha i had -_- arghhhzzz stupid stupid.. i will confirm slp during lectures tml... how to survive jc life sia... ZZZZZZZZZZZ... theres still tonnes and tonnes of work to be done.. ommggggggggggg...................ggggg............gggg....................................................... gdnite ppl (:

fucking hell.. theres tonnes and tonnes and tonnes of work to be done..

Chem alkene tutorial, physics gravitation and simple harmonic motions tutorials, maths tutorial on the malcharin expression, econs TWO case studies AND on TOP oF THAT, TWO BLOODY ESSAYS because im in the econs supplementary lesson.. fuck it... Chinese ke hou lian xi, GP AQ and summary... wah fuck fuck fuck.. im so not gg to slp tonight... im surviving on starbucks mocha which ive bought just now.. god dam it...seven more hours to sch.. how to finish all these =((((

nice pieces.. esp for machu picchu.. really wish to that with the band.. haha, we have tried playing danza sinfonica, a good piece to train... might be playing for fiesta... (:

National Day is coming, and monday is a school holiday for all! (:

went to hougang area in the afternoon.. was passing by this durian stall and omgggggggggg, i simply cant resist the temptation to just grab one! haha D:

okay, ive planned to stay overnight somewhere during national day, so that i can watch the fireworks with all my darlings and maybe have fish n co AGAIN? D:

eat Fish n Co until dam sick sia -_- cuz i just had it two days ago? oh ya, not to forget to mention that ive won 16bucks for mahjong... ooooo, btw, we can see fireworks from nikki hse cuz its quite near marina bay la, so maybe have mahjong again while watching fireworks. YAY!!!

and fuck. theres school tml. fuck fuck fuck. so many things to study and do and yet theres so little time. and im wasting time here blogging for nth -_- fuck, and its so stupid that i actually feel lik applying for a course in medical faculty. kns... tats just bullshit.. i want to watch a movie again.. Money Not Enough 2! :D any cheena poks who is interested in this movie? (=

Watched the dark knights with my friends... super duper uber nice! it was so worthwhile spending 8.50 jus for this movie.. its awesome! :D

then went to nikki hse to play mj and won 16bucks :))

and yucks.. theres sch on monday.. oh crap -__-



my future hse? hahahaah




dont ask me why i didnt go down tk today and watch the band... personal reasons... so what if i go down? nothing much will happen except that i will have to answer some stupid questions and put on a fake smile? lol... and anyway i dont intend to go at all although i was ALMOST persuaded to go when i started receiving calls from my friends and seniors, and juniors asking me why im not going -_- and tat stupid xinyi so thick skin cuz she actually wanted me to record the whole performance for her -_- hhahhaaaa... all i can say is.. all the best to TKBAND! oh well, too bad that things have turned out like this (:

Interesting physics video! A MUST WATCH (:

okay, i super duper love this laptop to the max... although it doesnt have any webcam and recording functions, but still its windows vista.. hahaaaaaaaa, just wish that the comp breaks down forever... and im lik using this laptop as if it belongs to me!!

dam it, e learning rocks to the max can.. lol so funny la.. i was at nard's hse doing econs elearning.. i put on my earpiece and listen to beetsma lecturing us... oh gosh, less than two minutes, i fell asleep with the laptop on my legs... her voice is so soothing to the ears, lik a lullaby! hohoooo.....

my whole gang knows how to play mahjong... and its just so nice that we have eight people.. we plan to have mj session on national day at nikki hse, open two tables? LOL!!!! oh, planning to have a year end overseas holiday with them.. bintan -_- HAHAHAHAAAAAA...

all of us are mahjong addicts to the max, just had online mahjong with them and tml we are playing the real one at nikki hse after shopping and watching movie at marina!! watching DARK KNIGHTS!!!!!! :DDDDDDDD

hoooooooooo.... and i bet nicholas is chionging his elearning now... his dp is super ugly! and hes doing history now.. wtf, i didnt know he took history as one of the subject... wth.. sometimes i think that maybe taking history is better than taking econs and physics.. god dam itttttttttttttttttt......................................

okay im looking forward to tml.. but NOOOOTTT looking forward to monday! :D yay, back to mugging physics now =( see ya all my darlings TML! :D

lol.. interesting videos when i was doing my elearning just now :)





lol... SOMEbody send me the links of miss swan new videos.. as funny as ever man! :D

its interesting to hear stories like a 13 year old boy liking a 16 year old senior, doing things for her on her birthday or even during days of no special occasion. Haha, looks lik jie di lian is the new trend nowadays? what is happening to today's society? Im not trying to say that the age difference should be used as a gauge for what type of people to get together, but it seems like this criteria which was regarded with certain amount of importance in the past is no longer valid now.

If you are given a choice, having to choose a man to marry, one of which is a 65 year old billionaire who might die anytime while the other one is someone who is close to your age(older than you) and has a promising future, who will you choose? Would you be in a dilemma?

The answer might be quite apparent to some but still, it can be subjective. Do not underestimate the power of love, neither should we have that kind of mindset towards the power of money. The affluent population in Singapore has been growing rapidly (quite a generalised statement because i dont have figures to substantiate), and this seems to be a rampant situation with people from other countries having higher purchasing power. Only during recession, it will then alter everything and that is when reality sets in. Money might be everything, but there are things that cant be bought since they are priceless, either that or they cannot be measured in value.

Power of love? haha, should i say that its something that can be classified under the category of "necessities of life"? Will i die without having love? I myself cant really decide on which stand to take. People who go around flirting with girls/guys, leading others on or even confessing to them, are they so called the despos? Do they impoverish their lives by the limits which they place on their love? There are people who go like "hey, why cant you just be more decisive, stop leading him/her on with all your stupid tactics can when you are not even interested in that person!" i mean like WOW!, well said by the person. But wait, did the person ever reflect upon him/herself that he/she is able to that too? Having not to reply to someone who is going after you at all? How about another scenario, when a person is trying so hard to forget someone when he/she likes that someone so much? Why must the person torture him/herself, trying all means to forgo everything when you know that deep down inside your heart, the feelings are still so strong. This person definitely has no rights to scold someone for leading another person on, because if you yourself cant even handle your personal feelings well, what bloody rights do you have to reprimand him/her? If he/she loves leading people on, let it be unless it concerns you THAT much. But i have to say that that person ought to be taught a lesson by someone, and that someone has to be one of the suitors having the courage to confront her right in her face. And because the so called power of love, there are people who are willing to try all means to change this type of person who is a failure when handling relationships. I have realised that outsiders wont be able to help much, because i had experienced this before, having to tell my friend not to do this and that as it will tarnish his/her reputation, but all words were treated as if nothing has went into his/her ears. This person ought to learn a lesson which will wake him/her up.

Can i really live without love? Definitely not if the world is going to end by 21st December 2012. Lol, that was really random. Nobody can foresees your future. I am nourished by love especially from friends and i feel glad for that. Friends are hard to come by, but are they really the ones who can spiritually support me till i part with this world? I have got no idea, but i dont believe in having friendships which will last for eternity. Nothing lasts, not even mankind's life span, but at the same time, nothing is lost. Things that we have once possessed before left us with memories, be it good or bad. Think in a way that at least they were once part of your life, and your life is merely a short 100years. So, do cherish what you have now because you wouldnt know when it might secretly leave you without even you noticing it. And when you know that it is no longer with you anymore, there will be sorrows, agony and most importantly, having regrets. Sorrows and agony are nothing. They are just feelings that can be gone with the wind and the time factor sets in. But having regrets is something worse as time cannot be turned back.

Its just a random post though it sounds abit like a GP essay. E-learning is kinda okay, cuz i am able to absorb more when im studying alone.. Whole week no sch, how shiok can that be? (:

hello hello (: im back here blogging... ive finished doing my eom! :DDDDDD but exceeded the word limit..

im so excited for tml! hehehe...

theres free lunch and dinner provided siolllllll... all thx to nikki bitch. okay, i will be able to see his cool younger brother, Levon! hahaha :p mahjong mahjong.. <33

i think ryan dam weird, keep kajiaoing me these few days on msn... and the reason was that hes bored -_- but i find talking to him can be quite interesting.. in some ways, both of us look very kp to others.. but when ppl come and interact with us, that is the time when we will let our guard down, somehow become more friendly.. im not sure if hes that kind of person.. but he says that hes sth similar to me, we dont interact much in the beginning.. but it takes time to know us... lol... and hes trying to act humble by saying that he quite okay in his tpt playing.. and btw, i didnt know hes twenty years old.. dunno he talk cock or wad but ya... oh and he misses band! lol? so sad.. i bet alot of other J2s also miss the band alot...

i find that time is passing so slow on days which i dont have school.. i wonder why...... azlan messaged me saying that hes free on either mon or wed to have a dinner with us.. wonderful wonderful.. im so looking forward to that dinner =)

HI! *in bx's voice* lol.. just woke up :D

Happy SWEET 17th BIRTHDAY MICHELLE CYNTHIA AW WEI LING~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

looks lik all of us have turned 17 except nikki the slut. and yea, we definitely cant wait for our rocking 18th birthday to come.

Took back my mid year progress from miss tng ytd. sigh, results really suck to the max. ive only got 8percentile for physics =((((( this is real bad... gg to mugg dam dam dam hard for physics now.. when u feel lik mugging, theres PW to do.. when u don feel lik mugging, there are tonnes and tonnes of tutorial or case studies waiting for you to touch on them. Life in JC really sucks -_- but luckily, time passes fast. it can be seen as an advantage or otherwise. Miss tng somehow scolded us on how average our results was for my class. theres a group of ppl who are doing well and they have been consistent in doing their tutorials while theres another group who has been quite slack with their work. and ya, im definitely guilty for them.. its because some of us that probably pulled down the class ranking in the cohort when we can be one of the top... zzzzzzzzzzz, i really got no idea where im heading towards man... im still trying dam hard to settle down..and i should really believe in myself that i AM progressing yo!

wanted to meet friends at parkway after my pw meeting, but was too exhausted from the Alevel chinese listening compre which was held earlier on.. so i made my way home.. took bus 38 with nicholas and i think hes dam cute(as a friend -_-).... he wanted me to go and watch the MEP concert at esplanade today.. haha, but ive got no money and that kind dude is willing subsidise me FIVE DOLLARs only... lol cheapo.. haha =X realised that ive been spending money on food this whole week.. gg pizza hut ah, breeks cafe ah~~ oh ya! there was batch dinner ytd night.. haha, its great to see those guys, reminiscing the past events which were mostly on our band life in TK. and looks lik the sgc is finally out!

hohoho, im glad about certain stuff. didnt expect that i was able to succeed in it so fast as compared to last time.. ive tried all means to check whether i do have feelings for it, but it looks lik everything is gone... every single thing..(pls don think so far) i shall keep this a secret.. =X

i just want to faster spend the rest of 14 months in tj, get it over and done with.... i havent decided on which faculty is the ideal one for me. but oh god, i haven even overcome the first hurdle and im thinking about the second one -_-

just now listening compre was dam funny, it totally reminds me of Olevel listening compre... they wil play symphonic band music for half an hour which really makes people go to sleep.. during last year listening, they played Canon in D.. lol quite nice la.. this time round i dunno wth the music is about... i almost fell asleep cuz it was cold(aircon lor) and the music was quite soothing to the ears la... =/ okay, i gtg do work. will update more often when ive got the time... so yea, stay tuned! :D

just came back home from that yap hwee san's hse... wah lao.. we are in the same sch and yet we talk lesser to each other, ironic isnt it? lol... it has been sooo freaking long ever since i last talked to her which was dunno when la... was doing surfing the net with junliang at the HUB until arnd five.. lol.. hes flying off to SHANGHAI next tues to sun.. aww so sad =/ hahaaa... thereafter meet hs and went to her hse..did some hw and probably gossip? -_- lol, dun hav so much time for that la... there was GP essay test just now.. i wrote on whether home is considered important in people's lives today... ahahazz.. hopefully can get better marks la...

on sunday, the usual gang had dinner with tp and sophia at changi airport breeks cafe... okay it was so dam funny la.. people sitting next to us ordered a super duper big bowl of ice cream for some birthday purposes la.. so we were sang along la... den that sofy kept looking at them and say, eh today my friend's birthday also... i think the manager heard... so he gave her free ice cream when we were about to bill.. HAHAHHAAA... dang dang funny... it wasnt her birthday at all can? -_-

thereafter, we roamed arnd airport terminal 2 and 3.. wow.. and guess who i saw? lol.. i saw sarah(ex Tkband sax SL and Tjband alumni)!!! hahazz.. shes working at some gift shop in T3! and guess what she told me next? Atikah works there too -_- wah biangssss... lol... Singapore is just so dam small =/

NEXT WEEK IS TJ's E-LEARNING WEEK!! hahahazz... i wish that the whole system just break down and crash la... then we can just act innocent and do nth abt it.. whole week dun need to go sch, how shiok can that be!?!?!?! might be having mj session again this coming sun.. i swear i must win back all my money from that stupid thongkiat!!! and I FORBID him to wear RED shirt again if he wants to play with us.. arghhhzzzz....
bx is dam HAHAHAHA.... she went for the G-max thing with her gang... omg... she looks fking unglam.. and dam dam HUMJI to the max la. okay, im not trying to say im dam brave and i wont be scared if i were there.. but still... she just look dam humji and her facial expression was lik having orgasm =X hHAHAHAHAH! i swear if i win thirty bucks back from thongkiat, i will go and try G MAX! i make sure bx sits on top of me... and she can just get fly off to the universe forever... bye slut! lolololololololol...


random photo, view from HS room


dunno who took this photo


T3



Crowne Plaza


nikki the bitch


lol.. photos all jumble up.. paisei.. second shot from hs room


nice right? mich ordered this


nikki ordered this.. it looks weird =/




the lovely couple. sofy and tp


ages ago.. bx the fucktard acting pro in mj


PONG! stupid thongkiat wear red shirt! zZZZZZZZ


FISH AND CHIPS! MINE! :D



the free ice cream we got.. HAHAHAH :D



omfg, im webcaming with e slut now.. lol.. wah lao eh.. bx is really a piece of funny shit can? wad baby wo ai ni.. wah kao... feel lik puking... and shes fking vulgar TO THE MAX!! -_- she has a fan switched on beside on.. she claims that shes some chiobu taking photos and got the wind effect.. omgggGGGGGGG... wads wrong with ppl nowadays.. mich everyday act cute in sch until... ommMGMGGGGGGGGGGGG... acting cute is the latest trend?? hAHAHHAHA!!! stupid yughan, say wanna talk and call me.. in the end? go and sleep and dream abt jamie.. lol loser kia... okay i wanna go to my dreamland too! bye ppl :D

lastly, HUANG BAOXIAN SUCKSSS!! MAXXX!!!!!! knnccbljk <--- dedicated to my dearest verity huang baoxian! :D

For music lovers, do listen to it. Played by us - Temasek Junior College Symphonic Band during Prelude 28. Got it from Tommy's blog whos our ex-student conductor. Live for music man! :)

Nites everyone.. theres sch in a few hours time.. sad =( will post some pics tml... funny incidents in the airport!! hahazzz...

im gg to the airport later on to mugg -__- and meet up with sophia and tp to have dinner! :D

ive finished watching zhuan jiao yu dao ai.. its really super duper uber nice can!!!!!! Da S is quite chio in the show as compared to liu xing hua yuan which was years ago... haha! having band pracs every wed and fri... im enjoying the music.. enjoying linsheng's conducting.. okay tat was random.. suddenly i felt so much for band.. hopefully we can have three pracs every week soon.. do our best for the upcoming fiesta08 and work hard towards prelude 29 and most importantly, SYF2009! (:

on fri night, i slept at 9 which was abt the time i reached home, went for a bath, and onto my bed and SLEEP. wah, i wake up the next morning at abt 11.. lol, was late for pw meeting at the national library.. wah biang... wad kind of coincidence was that man? my sis and her friends came at abt 2plus to do their project also.. they were sitting right infront of us.. NLB so big, and so zhun that she has to go level 11 -_- zzzzzz.....

after pw, walked arnd at bugis with my friend... met another one at arnd four plus.. went bugis street and bought my baGG!! hehezz.. not cheap sia.. i bargain for the price from 55.90 to 50.. 5.90 can be quite alot okay!!! enuff to buy a mac EVM!!! hohoho.. so dam happy now..

im so looking forward to Elearning week.. then can stay at home and slack during that period of time. but heard from miss tng that there will be alot of hw =/ sighhhhh.. but so wad? time really flies man.. its already MID JULY!! and promos is ten weeks away from now i think... =/ Year One for JC life is going to end soon..im so not looking forward to year two.. and im dam lazy, cuz i dun study much -_- its no use saying that you want to turn over a new leaf.. even though u turn it, its still the same leaf... lol, dunno heard from who la but anyway, i think its dam true... a leopard never changes its spots.. i hate this phrase.. cuz i dont think its true at all...

oh i just rmbed sth.. i forgot to return hs call for twice.. omg im dead -_- LOLOLOL




on thurs, stayed back in sch till eight with aw.. bought slurpee!! the miniature slurpee is an eraser.. soo cute





corner with love.. this scene is dam sad.... lol



theme song for the show..

good morning everyone! in just a few hours time, i will be back in sch... didnt sleep alot these few nights, resulted to sleeping during almost all lectures.. hopefully i wont get caught by the chemistry lecturer again.. =X hmm, even bojun mentioned that i looked dam shagged in the morning when taking 69.. i shall take one day off, probably weekends, to just sleep the whole day....

life in school is da best... lol, looks lik i pass all subs except econs.. not sure abt GP though, hopefully get a subpass.. =/

went down NUH on wed afternoon for a dental visit. the dentist who attended on me is from the NUS Dentistry Faculty.. haven graduated yet but got quite a lot of experience in orthodontics.. so yeap.. first time i saw him, i was lik totally wow? hahaz, hes really a nice person, dam talkative.. hes 23 this year and previously studied in RJC.. COOL RITE?? hahaazz.. then he started rambling about how naughty he was during his sec sch and JC life... quite interesting to talk to him.. and guess what? he says that i got anything to confide in him, can just give him a call or sms anytime.. LOL! lik wth man?

wah lao.. have been sleeping during lectures non stop man... really dam freaking tired!!!! cuz i always sleep at two or one plus at night.. have been watching zhuan jiao yu dao ai(corner with love) taiwan drama.. its luo zhi xiang and Da S this time round being the lead actor and actress... wow.. theres quite alot of chemistry between them in this show.. this show is super duper uber nice can!!! ahhhhhhhh... some scenes are super sweet and yet some are freaking irritating.. esp during the times when luo zhi xiang can be quite indecisive in confessing to Da S that he admires her.. lol.. but the whole process is dam nice la... theres another guy who is quite hot inside the show... somemore hes rich!! aiya, this only happens in shows la... =((

talking to bx on msn is dang dang funny... lollll.... that stupid pea seriously dam sluttish can.. next time i swear im gg to throw a mj tile on her face across the living room or sth.. :DDD

shiet, im getting tired now.. okay time to go and sleep!!! ((: nites ppl.. will update my blog more often when i have time la... anyway, im really alright people... i dun care abt anything.. anymore... :)

i told myself to be strong no matter what happens. im old enough to handle all these, even if im all alone by myself.

the purpose of posting the previous entry is not to gain any sympathy from anyone, neither am i proud to tell everyone abt my own family probs. its just that it comes to a point that there isnt anything to be ashamed of. i didnt tell any single soul about it in the past, purely because i think that im dam ashamed of this kind of family. everyone jus trying to put on a brave front. and honestly speaking, my mum doesnt want anyone to know about it just because shes afraid that we will lose face. probably tats e reason why i didnt bother to confide in bernard anything abt this since his mum and my mum are colleagues... thats the main reason...

this morning was so bad.. i looked into the mirror while brushing my teeth.. my eyes were red and swollen.. probably due to lack of sleep and too much of crying... slept at arnd 4 plus in the morning.. im shocked by wads happening today.. everything suddenly became so quiet.. should i say that i enjoy this tranquilness or i rather it to be as noisy as ever? know what? i dont know the answer cuz basically i dont give a damn about anything now.. my only wish now is that i can finish my education asap and get employed by a big company, earn big bucks, and live outside by myself in an executive apartment. thats the kind of life i yearn for..... but who knows again? everyone might just die EVEN BEFORE the arrival of 21dec2012...

dun worry my friends.. im so dam alright now.. no use crying over some bastard.. no use worrying abt all these when ive got so many other stuff worth my concern.. and honestly, im kinda amused by someone telling me go find a councillor to talk abt it. funny isnt it? well, at least i think so... i rather talk to friends.. friends who i can confide in... but this time round, i chose the alternate route, that is to blog about it and tell the whole world how sucky my family can be... frankly speaking, i dont admire other families who are happy living with each other.. cuz i know that given my kind of character, i just wanna survive alone, hmmm, probably with someone i truely love... oh well, but finding that MR Right is going to take some time as i can be quite particular about someone's character.. lol, im not trying to say that ive got a gd character, but i mean lik its normal for girls to look at that first before considering how the person looks lik... =)

sorry for all my rantings which can be quite unpleasant... i know this is my blog and ive got rights to blog abt anything.. but somehow, i dun wish to pollute the minds of my readers.. a big thx to all my friends out there. im really fine now... i must be strong.. its hard.. but i will continue this journey no matter how hard it is...

btw, happy sweet 17th birthday to miss YAP HWEE SAN!! :DDD

im all alone in the room.. i dun care wads happening outside at all... fucked bastard... not calling tat fucking bastard dad for six god dam years... im beyond hurt today.. very very very... i swear i wont even shed a single tear when hes dead.. i wont at all...

its a mental torture... i cried non stop since afternoon til now... not crying over tat bastard.. but just thinking why am i borned into this kind of family... and everytime mum will just put on a facade to others... willing to tolerate that bastard's nonsense for twenty sth years... i dun blame my mum at all.... and yes.. i pray to god every single day that they can just get a divorce.. and my wish is finally fufilled.. after so many fucking years of abuse... mentally especially.. all of us had enough.. more than enough... tat bastard drived me to the extreme end and i did unexpected things..

imagine everyone is not at home, except me and some fucked up bastard.. and hes getting so cranky over stuff that he overheard.. few days back, my siblings and i had a discussion in my room while the fucker was sleeping in the room right beside ours... and i bet he heard some stuff... we were discussing abt the future.. where to move,, whether to sell the hse or not.. wads gg to happen to me when i have not even finished my studies yet.. job wise for my siblings.. how? my mum too.. we had great plans to get rid of him.. sis even suggested that after having a divorce, have some document prepared as an evidence to prove that we arent related to him any any more and he got no rights to find us for money in the future.. wow.. i was so elated to hear that.. fucking happy... and what fucked up stuff happened just now? i locked myself in the room.. when he tried opening the door claiming to take some stuff, i was lik what u want to take? and fucked it, the moment when he knew it was locked, he bang and slam the door for umpteen times... its so fucking loud that practically every single person living in this whole block can hear everything... vulgarities started echoing in the hse...saying that this isnt your hse at all and not yr fucking room... u better open the door now if not i kill u.. its not just scolding "cheebye, lanjiao or wadever hokkien vulgarities" its telling u to go fuck other ppl.. go fuck your friends and be a prostitute at geylang..insulting all my friends.. and just because that bastard saw me coming home with bernard, he claims that tats the fucking boyfriend whom i fuck every single day.. insulting me that im watching some porno stuff in the room just bcuz he heard some television sound... i can tahan him scolding wadever shit of me.. what i cant stand is that he actually pushed everything to my mum.. claiming that she go fuck someone else and give birth to me.. cheebye.. and say that if i ever dare step out of the room, hes gg to rape and kill me... words like "my thing is long enough to fuck you deep in" crude.. crude... abuse.. its seriously mentally abusing me lik mad.. i was scared stiff.. because i didnt have phone with me.. all i could do is just cry to myself...

when everyone was back.. he acted lik nth has happened.. i came out and started yelling at him, and of cuz.. saying that im proud to be a prostitute to fuck him back... didnt expect my bro's gf was outside too.. nevertheless, tat maddog started yelling lik nobody's business again.. everyone came to noe what happened after me saying in the midst of the war... violent... to the max.. bro's gf went out first.. i dun fucking care.. everyone was mad.. my mum was.. my sister too... no i dont wish to say wad exactly happened...

will it help just by calling 999? no it doesnt at all.. twice already and it didnt help at all for the past 10 years.. this is the first time i telling all these to everyone except one person who knows abit of it only... it comes to a point that theres nth to be ashamed of at all... even my mum thinks so now.. want to quarrel then lets do it man.. no need to be scared of others being able to hear or see it.. cuz its usual already.. everyone knows that problems and quarrels forever will arise from this unit.. mum's telling me to call the police if such thing arises again... haha, come to think of it. i was stupid enough to sympathise him, claiming that even after we don live tgt, maybe we should still send him some money each month even though we totally cut off connections from him.. and sister straight away objected to it and said "totally cut off connection.. dun even need to care whether hes dead or alive.. none of our business...totally..." everybody was speechless..

i swear i hate this kind of home... i wanted to kill him just now.. was really in a irrationale state of mind...but i kept quiet.. and just tolerated all these... all i could do is just cry to myself... and nw my sis is yacking away.. "now u see why u must come over to my hse?" i guess its really time to move out.. i cant stand all these any anymore.............

sianz.. dunno wth im thinking about these few days.. really sucks..to e max... i cant think for nuts..

im super duper tired.. just reached home from 15hrs of mahjong... im glad theres youth day tml.. oh well, the world's gg to end by 21st Dec 2012.. so i dun really care much now.. just want everything to go along my way.. selfish it may seemed to be, but ive got no choice... i wana die sooner... relieve from all the stress... no worries.. no thoughts at all.. no stress... no unhappiness...but just a life i simply enjoy...

im sick n tired of everything.. =((( i really need a shoulder to lean on... its now the time to do so... i want to get married, and give birth before 2012.. quite stupid rite? i dont want any money.. but just pure happiness.. lol... wishful thinking i guess... realised that my IQ and EQ are getting worse..=/ life is getting tougher each and every day.. im amazed by how ppl taking it so lightly when they get straight Us for jct.. but i guess they are the smart ones, who will just be a mugger when the right time comes...

went back tk ytd.. sigh.. im wondering wth is gg on.. its really getting worse... just felt lik shutting my ears and eyes.. pretend not to see anything just like before... im being kind to even make a trip down, but im sorry to say that im not gg to clear up this pile of s*** tgt with them.. but still, im not that heartless.. if I HAVE time, i will come down to help as much as possible... and i wont go kl... cuz of many personal reasons...
btw, the new com was announced already...hopefully they wil bring the band to greater heights.. well, can see the sec fours are quite sad, but its just part and parcel of life that we need to leave somewhere or its time to lessen our burden... the band really need to work freaking freaking freaking hard... sec4s themselves must push the sec three leaders much much more... oh well... its really not easy to be a SL, esp when ur in an outdoor band of a high disciplinary level...

went nikki's hse after that to play mj.. everyone was there... his hse is becoming a gambling den, with two mj tables in the living room.. everyone scolds vulgarities lik nobody's business -_- lol, lucky his parents are overseas.. oh well =/ lost quite a lot la.. 30sth dollars.. there are times when u will win lik crazy or lose until vomit blood in gambling.. lol... btw, pon threw a mj tile straight into bx's fat face from another mj table to ours.. just simply cuz she was really fking noisy, being so sluttish and bitchy, with that acbc voice keep echoing in our ears.. unbearable siol.. lol.. but that fktard is cute la.. played alll the way till 3plus then went 7-11 to get some drinks.. basket.. the parkway outlet guy wanted to check our IC.. wad sia... first time failed to buy can? bitch sia...

im in a dilemma.. fk.. cuz i hate this kind of situation.. i hate taking bus alone cuz it somehows make it freaking emo for me and i will start to.... sigh... the only time i enjoy taking it alone is when im sleeping.... o_O shall blog more later or tml.. right now.. i want to... aiya, just wanna be a rock and stone la -_- the weather is dam hot.. global warming.....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......................

slept at 1am last night just to complete chinese and maths hw.. but didnt finish at all.. chinese hw is freaking OMMMGGG??? seven chapters of zuoye -_- fk.. need one whole day to do.. nvm.. i got the model answer sheet for the whole chinese workbook from grace and photocopied.. so yea.. im gg to just copy all my ans later.. dam it -_-

so freaking tired today.. i can practically fall asleep everywhere... stayed in sch till arnd 8 i think to do pw.. haha.. at arnd 6plus, pb mich and i went to the track and started running... pb ran five rounds while mich and i stopped after one round.. lie down on the field and look at the sky.. how wonderful can that be? weather was superb and not many ppl were arnd too.. really love tj to the max la.. other than studying part -_-

oh.. im gg to get a selmer S80 C** tenor sax mouthpiece!! HURRAY!! :DD oh gosh, i cant imagine that all this while ive been using a lousy yamaha mouthpiece with a selmer instrument.. really sound crappy man... hahaaa... C**mcp has a slightly bigger opening than C*, an improved version of C*.. so ya, hopefully i can master it asap =)

there is pilot test tml!!! hopefully everything goes well =) haha.. sch is ending at 12.30 tml!! yayyyyssssssss..... cant wait for sat to play mj.. my fingers are really getting itchy man, got an urge to touch the mj tiles.. awwww, kinda weird.. i dun really like staying at home other than during sleeping time =/ i feel lik gg to sch now... LOL tats random... :)

Dr Mario just contacted me to go down to national university hospital(dental dept) for some checkup stuff before receiving the full treatment.. crap.. i think im gg to put braces dam soon, probably in two weeks time.. =/ okay mario sounds funny.. but his name is really Dr Mario -_- lolllllllllllllllll :DDDDD wah lao, put braces dam ugly can? but no choice =/

Gd day ppl! just gg to type a short entry and i need to go off to do all my hw.. hmm lets see, ive got chinese hol hw which was left undone and its alot alot alot.. 6chapters of zuoye -_- erm, and theres math trigonometry tutorial to complete, physics tutorial on gravitation to complete too...

i kinda pass math =/ so ya.. other subs can go die.. maybe chem get subpass.. i pass chinese.. haven get back gp and econs yet.. heard from my friends that the whole cohort did terribly bad for econs.. HAHAHA!! oh gosh, so regretted taking econs as my H2sub.. should haven taken geog or sth.. but sigh, econs is a subject that is very important, relevant and useful to me in the future when im working.. =/ boohoo!! was just talking to mr oily online and hes quite disappointed with his results, saying that he will get 4Us(ungraded)... oh well, he thinks that its time to wake up from everything and gotta work dam dam hard for this semester.. i dun want to retain.. sigh... now i must constantly remind myself to work hard and play much lesser... =((

there was band just now.. lol.. played the piece beautiful oregon which i think it was quite interesting with the confusing time signature that keeps changing lik mad.. hahaaaaa... and oh ya!! do take a look at tjcsb blog.. its dang cool now.. nicholas and aida being the new creative directors have changed the blog with a whole new look!!! VISIT http://www.tjcsb.blogspot.com now!!

okay theres acjc band and snyo concerts coming up.. theres also TJ ALUMNI BAND CONCERT COMING UP on 2nd AUGUST 2008! it will be held at VCH, 7.30pm!!! tickets are sold at $12 for stall seats.. no more circle seats left.. so ya.. tixs are selling fast so grab it fast!! =)) lol.. the commitee members and SLs need to be VCH that day to do some stuff.. oh well, hope tat its gg to be fun :DD

okay, i shall end my post here and go mugg liao.. see ya guys! (:

im a happy little girl! :] hohoho.............. lets study tgt one fine day... study study study!!!!!!

woooooo!!!! :)) aiya.. fail then fail.. i dun give a damn already -_-

hohoho! anyway, zhikai came back tjc today to get his cert.. so yup met up with him and had a dam gd talk.. it has been so long since we last talked face to face.. hmmm... feeling weird though =/ lol.. but all these while he has been very concerning towards me, quite glad la... and he forgot all his Alevel work, cant even do any single qn of my physics paper.. HAHHA!!!! :DDDD

had Alevel chinese oral today.. OMMMMGGGGG.. the reading passage was super duper challenging can? the question asked was about why singaporeans go overseas to visit the tourist attractions rather than visiting the local ones.. wtf? -_- oh well, but i crap through my way with my china accent mandarin! HAHAHAHA bullshit siol.. hopefully can score well ba =]

have been talking to nicholas these few days and hes super duper funny la.. he calls me susu in sch now =( nvm.. i call him cutiepie and he approves it.. opps sry mich =X hahahazz... aiya, ppl self-proclaimed that hes as hot as ice but as cold as fire.. -_- wad lameshit is that?? and yea! THERES BAND PRAC TML!! ((:

hmm.. u see rite? JUST when i wanna turn over a new leaf for physics and decided to attempt on my "first" tutorial.. i cant even do a single qn.. omg.. gravitation chapter is super duper hard can? i can imagine hw diff it is for the chapter on electricity!! GG LIAO LOR!!!

MJ SESSION AGAIN THIS SAT!!! =))) awww.. cant stay overnight cuz i got wedding dinner. sighhhh... play with nccland guys again and my dearies at nikki hse.. WOOHOO!!!!!! :DD

HAPPY SWEET 16 ZING!! hahazzz.. wah time really flies man.. i look back those pics taken with her from the past.. realised that her face changed alot, became more mature.. lololol... and ya i became chioer too.. HAHHAHAHA.. hope u lik the present friend! xD

LINDAYeoh aka susu♥ (:
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